Today I am back!!!I survive and back again....Well back to society with a new post and jobs...as junior 3d artist.Salary and long working period plus no OT bonus.What A fucking boring job.Well I still have to do it for life and experience. sometime i wonder whether what I am doing is reaching my goal or I am just dying ...my will is losing...I still want to be A great Game Designer but the path is to difficult.No one pave this road,No cheat or superpower helping me and I am not famous enough to get what I want or money to get what I want.Why I am doing????I question my self to endless time...I lose my will and reason endless time...I sometime even think or doing a simple game to sell for life BUT i CAN'T DO IT!NO FRIEND NO HELP NO ONE EVEN CARE ABOUT MY THINKING MY REASON MY DREAM MY JOB...NO ONE!!!!!IS JEALOUSY A SIN??IF IT IS THEN i AM REALLY SINFUL BECAUSE I AM JEALOUS OF PEOPLE WITH RICH DAD OR FAMILY WITH POWERFUL INFLUENCE IN THE WORLD.WHY AM I SO SCREW ??AM I CRAZY.I no longer understand but it will still motivate me to move forward and step futher.how far is my road?how weak is my destiny?what my fate?so many question so many thing to ask yet no one know.Are you ready?AM I Ready?no fun no life.A life with out fun is just boring.world does not allow chaos but choas is always happening for a reason.My thinking is human mind cause the chaos.Someone once say human in unpredictable but what if human is chaos itself so such thing is predictable.What if Adam did not eat the apple of knowledge?It is actually a chaos in the form of fruit(not really apple) as snake hace symbolize chaos for many organization and group and MANY MANY OTHER.WHAT IF HUMAN IS NOT CHAOS...WORLD LOSE IT INTERESTING NATURE HUMAN WILL BE SMARTER AND ORDER....JUSTICE AND PEACE WILL NOT HAVE SUCH TERM...AND WE WILL HAVE DREAM AND AMBITION FULFILL...IS THIS GOD PUNISHMENT FOR HUMAN WITH AMBITION AND DREAM TO REALIZE IT IN THE CHAOTIC WORLD...IN CHAOS WITHOUT ORDER HUMAN IS GIVEN A UNFAIR ORDER WHETHER IN LIFE WEALTH OR PRESTIGE.I want to make this world fun myself....not by someone mean or block my other people....What am i saying GOD is almighty so he knew us better but he also unable to predict us...understanding us and knowing our choice in the different in life.BESIDE IF HUMAN IS REALLY SMART THEN WHY SO LITTLE PEOPLE NOTICE THIS WORLD CHAOS AND TWIST...OUR REASON OUR LIFE OUR ENDING..WHY DOES THE WORLD IS TWIST.BAD AND GOOD EVIL AND JUSTICE AND blah blah blah....all crap in the end....hurting someone is the only reason need to put some as ________(for me is normal).everyone need to hurt someone because they need to be hurt.If you punch someone mean someone is doing it..then the probability of this is not zero anymore.If we do it then some in this world will also do it even it is lesser.I can do it mean someone else will do it there to mean to end it as long as it no zero...this also the fairest part of the world.this apply to all living form beside human and poor.Sometime I wonder does this world have other not human but humanoid creature.World does not belong human yet why are us the one i see?where are they?ahahahahahahahahahahas!~human O human we are really the one isolated by this world aren't we.I the dark yet unable to see the truth.does who knew think it best for us those who hide wont tell us the truth....what is truth what other secret does this world hide....explore it all?becoming explorer is no longer a needed secret but no one is willing to become one to tell other...they want profit from it.does witch know?we know they exist yet they claim only demon exist not monster?humanoid creature?or any thing fucking thing!How much does not know is how much we are and idiot for....world is chaos and not simple as I say yet secret id puzzle lost in time for us to uncover what really hiding in the deepest part of this world...after experience many thing This is my thought.Am I correct and I wrong no one know no will answer...what a useless ME....come world let me bring you to a NEW NEW ERA ending this secret and chaos...HAHAHAHAS I wonder how many human need to be remove from this puzzle.Kill them?impossible I dont kill I only want the truth about this secret....why kill? because they cause this???no I because I am unable to make the next step....unable to see it.Just let me see uncover it.seeing it is not enough anymore.we need to shift this world to next era because the next war is coming soon.Human will stand 100 year without war but what will the next one be?Against unknown?Alien or new enemy.Human is also bored of fighting against human because it start to become boring...that no longer war just a lump of pride and greed.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH I am bored of this so will just give report of my status and BB today....
Recently new woork in new company and went to MALAYSIA KL?SELANGOR? a place call sunway LAgoon ////==
OH i also hook on chinese Novel recently especially those from SGACG
for game I am playing Maple1/2 SOulworker
LALA and sayo CYA you all Nextime....If anyone reading/......haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
