Damn It All!!

I guess my portfolio is still too weak to be come a presentation since I have send out to many company but receive no reply from any of it so I decide to just work part time or stay the same but that doesn't not mean I will have a easy life since there rent and everything else to take care of.Many don't fall from sky so I have to keep going on with my own life but I definitely know right now I am not walking on the path I plan for so many year.I guess I have many rival in this company and if I dont make it to the top ASAP I am going to become another person known as useless.This month my computer again got problem and I have format the entire hard disk so I guess the no more data about the preject I done in there ....I wonder now what should I do.I guess a meaningless blog like this will not gain other people attention but this is where I can put what I been through as a Games designer.now 20 year old and today is 26/08/2015 so I still have 10 year till 2025.the day I graduate is 06/02/2015 so I wonder how long more do have to wait until miracle appear.