2020 is ending yet I am .....

 Another 3 year and it will be 10 year since i start chasing my dream,I have not regret but I learn a little reality about this life  I experience many down and fall sucj as company bankrupt to fired yet I don't feel sad.I know the reason is because they unable to give me the spark and will to continue to work for them.Sometimes I wonder if I have problem because I unable to feel the beauty of money as I know we need them but not to the level or must have them.

Am I Weird?Am I Crazy?Am I Strange?

I really don't understand why am I so weird.I am living in path to my dream but I don't feel moving forward.I understand more than anyone that this is I have a serious LAZINESS  that have been with me for year yet I can't cut off.I NEED HELP TO CUT OFF THIS LAZINESS OR A SPARK TO BURN MY WILL.I CAN FEEL IT,NEXT YEAR WILL BE BEGIN A NEW LIFE.COVID-19 RUIN MY DAY BUT THEY WON'T RUIN MY WILL AS IT IS NEVER BROKEN.

GUESS MY ONLY GOOD POINT IS I NEVER GIVE UP ALTHOUGH I POSSESS THIS LAZINESS SICKNESS.

FATHER LORD ,I PRAY TO YOU

FOR THIS DAY I AM STILL HAPPY

FOR THIS DAY I AM STILL THANKSFULL

FOR THIS DAY I AM STILL LIVING 

FOR THIS DAY I SEEING THE WORLD

AND

FOR MY LIFE IS BLESS

FATHER LORD,I ASK FOR FORGIVENESS

AND 

I ASK FOR YOUR GUIDE 

THANK YOU LORD.